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me? i'm just an average guy. torn by millions of inexplicable conflictions, contradictions, and complications, just like everyone else. my head runs away with me sometimes. and when it comes back, then my heart goes. i've been living in a self-perpetuated cycle of torment and salvation for years now. i am the product of a dysfunctional, middle-class remarriage; of a father i don't know; a mother i mostly don't get along with; a stepfather that hates me; of hormones i can't control; of typical teen angst; of genes and conditions that i never chose. if you couldn't tell, i'm also somewhat narcissistic. i've been told i'm talented, that i'm intelligent, that i have potential. i hate that word with the passion of many thousand hates. i'm really just an average guy. welcome to my world. sad and pathetic as it is, it's mine. or is it? i don't know. depending on my mood, it may be hateful, depressing, pessimistic, sappy, joyful, energetic, stupid, childish, thoughtful, astoundingly mature, insightful, optimistic, realistic, cynical, or any number of other things. i can't put a solid label to it. i should also mention that i am highly impressionable. an emotional leech, if you will. better hope you don't ever meet me, because i may be tempted to work my way into your heart or mind and suck you dry of everything you ever thought you were, right down to the marrow. i can't help it; yet. it's just the way i am. and i'm slowly learning to accept that. so if you've managed to keep reading this far, i suggest you stop before you actually become interested. that would be a mistake. like i said, i'm just an average guy. no different, better or worse than anyone else. and that scares the shit out of me.

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